Saturday, August 29, 2015

Mr. Sandman....Please Bring Me Reality...

Sometimes I wonder where the idea, imagery, or even the people come from; when it comes to dreams. It's been said you dream of something you did that day. Maybe something on your mind? What I never could understand is where do the random things come from?

Lately I've had dreams of the same person. Someone I would never consider in the real world as a love interest. This person is a great guy, but we are different people. Sure, opposites attract, but I'm not sure our opposites would work out. Although, I guess you never know.

Because I've been dreaming of him, I can't stop thinking of him in real life. Before you say, I'm crushing on him. I'm not. Most likely because I know we'll never be. I think I realize this because I've gotten to the point that maybe just maybe I'm meant to be single. No, I'm not giving up on love. Not yet at least. I think a lot of it has to do with me knowing the signs. I see the same thing with all guys I've had crushes on. I know when someone has no interest in me.

That could be why I'm crushing on fictional guys more than I would right now with a real guy. No, I'm not one of those crazy people who think the fictional guys are real. But it's nice to imagine, hey if I had a guy like that? I could be happy. Again though, I'm not giving up on a guy. If one comes along and I feel something? Great.

So, my next question about dreams. If I think, oh this actor or character is hot. Why can't I dream about them? No, instead I dream of him. In the dream, we'll be friends, but I feel something. In other dreams, we're dating. I'm betting you're wondering how close we are in real life. Honestly, not that close. I see him from time to time, but not enough to where I could crush on him. I see his posts on Facebook. The posts don't make me want to have a crush on him though.

With my luck, since I'm blogging about him, I'll dream of him tonight. Maybe I could try to think of Mr. Darcy before bed. Hmm, which version of Darcy do I want to dream about?

I have thought about looking things up in a dream dictionary, but how accurate are those? Guardian angel maybe? Someone who is watching over me? Dreams have to mean something. Who knows, maybe somewhere deep down I'm thinking of him and I fight the feelings for him. So, I bury the feelings somewhere in my mind. Somehow a key unlocks the box and my thoughts are released in my dreams? Could it also be that my thoughts of him come out in my dreams because I know we'll never be?

I wish we could force our dreams so we don't have to dream of something that will never occur. Why can't dreams be like our reality? I know in reality, I have a ninety percent chance of growing old alone. Why can't my dreams face reality?

In the meantime, I guess I'll have to wake up and realize it was all a dream. When I see him again, we'll say hi and what's up. We'll move on with our lives soon after. I have to admit though,if I dream of him. I'm sure he doesn't dream of me, but what could he think of me? Do I pop into his head? Something he sees or does, could he think of me? I guess we'll never know.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Reading, Watching, Listening...you name it

So this is just what I'm reading, watching, and maybe listening to at the moment.

For more information on the books, movies, TV shows, and so on. Feel free to click on the titles.

Right now, I'm reading:
The Dovekeepers by Alice Hoffman
Insurgent by Veronica Roth
Confessions of a Prairie Bitch by Alison Arngrim
Go Set A Watchman by Harper Lee

Bought:
The 4 A.M. Breakthrough by Brian Kiteley

Book Club Books:
Z for Zelda by Theresa Anne Fowler
I Am Malala by Malala Yousafzai

Audiobooks:
Outlander by Diana Gabaldon and narrated by Davina Porter

Music:
The Fellowship of the Rings Soundtrack
Jurassic Park soundtrack
Joss Stone's Water For Your Soul 

TV SHOWS:
Full House Season One
New Girl Season Three
Supernatural Season Three
Once Upon a Time Season Two 

Movies:
Sense and Sensibility (1981)

Books from the library:
Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me by Mindy Kaling
33 Great Writers on Why We Read Jane Austen edited by Susannah Carson
UnSweetined by Jodie Sweetin
Dancing Through Life by Candace Cameron Bure
Reshaping it All by Candace Cameron Bure
Shadow Kiss by Richelle Mead
The Real Wizard of Oz by Rebecca Loncraine
All Roads Lead to Austen by Amy Elizabeth Smith
Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

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I also posted a video.

Monday, August 17, 2015

To Socialize or not to Socialize...that is the question

So I'm feeling good right now. Why, you ask? I had a writing weekend. I managed to only go onto Facebook and Twitter once over the weekend and that wasn't until Sunday evening. Better yet, I was able to get off both sites in a timely fashion. I just hope I can keep it up. We shall see.

I just hope as I back away from Facebook and Twitter, people will still keep in contact. Remember life before Facebook and Twitter? You would call people or email. Heck, we had AOL instant messenger. It's bad enough, I feel out of touch with so many people because if you don't catch their post? Oh well, you'll never know their exciting news. It's also sad because I have friends on Facebook who I was close with, but now? Yea, I'll see a post from them, but half the time it's a game post or some type of quiz.

You have to love the friends who seem surprised when you say something like, "Cool, I didn't know." They get annoyed with you because apparently they posted the great news on Facebook like two weeks ago. I have many, many friends on Facebook and Twitter. Unless, we are super close these days. Unfortunately, I'm not going to see it. Heck, sometimes its hard to keep up with family.

Do you ever feel guilty about missing a friends great news? Or, do you want to be like me and think...oh well. Maybe you should have said something by, I don't know email? I don't like talking on the phone, but there is great thing called text messaging.

Thoughts? How do you handle friends who get annoyed when you don't keep up with their life?

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Not It

No matter how hard you try and feel like that person is the one. It never works out the way you plan. What makes matters worse? The fact that person goes for your friend. I've noticed a pattern in my life. About 90% of the guys I have ever liked, liked a friend. It makes me wonder what the heck is going on. This has been going on at least since high school. When and why did this start in high school? Doesn't it stop somewhere?

We'll call the latest guy crush, Fred. We'll call my friend, Vickie. Vickie shows no interest in Fred, but Fred seems to think otherwise. He is always flirting with her, texting her, or even walking side by side. Okay, I just realized I sound like I'm in high school. So before I start sounding like I'm in high school. We'll just say, Fred treats me as a friend.

There have been times I have wondered. I flirted and he flirted back. As soon as Vickie walks in the room though, I'm the invisible woman. Too bad, I don't have super powers. Oh the things I could do.

If we're out to dinner, I sit there and play with my food. If we're just hanging out, I zone out. The third wheel emotion comes into play.

There have been nights I come home and want to do this. 

Have I talked to Vickie about it? Nope, and probably won't. As always they'll feel guilty and try to encourage the guy in my direction, but we know how that goes.  Besides, I'll get the speech. Oh Robyn, you are a great person. He's stupid not to like you. I'm sure you've heard that at some point in your life.

I keep telling myself to move on. Think of someone else and not him. But darn it, until another guy comes along or I come to my senses, I can't stop thinking about him.

Now that I've played the clip of Bridget Jones, I want to watch the movie.
 

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Here We Go Again

So here I am again tempting to write a blog. I’m hoping this is it. I will do my best to write more. Part of the problem is I hit a bump in the road. I’ve become lazy with my writing, reading, TV, and movies. I need to fix that. I know what part of the problem is, but due to the Internet being public. Yea, we won’t go into it. We’ll just say it has made me less motivated and lazy. I’m trying to fix that. I decided I need to find the light at the end of tunnel. It has to be there. Right? I’ll find the light at the end of the tunnel, but I’m hoping it’s not the last one.

There has to be a few more in my life. I have come across them. The last one though was maybe five years ago. Now though that I think about it, I’m not sure it was a light at the end. That’s when things started to go downhill. Well, I need to change that. Time to get up the hill again. This is short, yes. But this is me attempting to get myself blogging again. 

So, today’s questions for you. Do you need motivation? Do you need to find the light at the end of the tunnel? Comment below, let’s talk.